Aunt Flo is here

That's no fun.

We had a showing of the condo today. That is fun, although the house this morning was chaos from being sick all week. It looks great now, Matt helped. :D

8 dpo

8 days past ovulation and no af yet. That alone is positive since my luteal phase has been so short. I had diarhea yesterday (tmi, i know) and that is often a sign of AF. I also have had bad reflux and that could be a sign of pregnancy? maybe? please? yes, I am hoping for reflux. I had to eat tums the other day, and I hate them, and I havent had any since I was pregnant with Landen.
I am sick with bronchitis, and feel terrible. It hurts to talk eat and swallow.

Landen is sick to but the most wonderful boy around. He was playing with a clean diaper and put a play fried shrimp in it, and opened it, it looked like poop, and said, yucky. LOL
What a goof. I love how he makes me smile, and so happy.
I am tempted again to take on some doula clients, but Matt expressed his concern about Landen sleeping. I think I will have to wait until he sleeps better at night. Maybe when he's closer to two? I really want to get my two first certification births done. To bad none of my friends are pregnant...except ***. Hmmmmmm

Today we took a nice long walk to the playground in our neighborhood. I was coughing a lot after though. It was beautiful though and so nice to be outside. I think it was about 70! We took our sweatshirts off.

Last night we went to Barnes and Noble and when we were exchanging a book we didn't want or read so I could buy Spiritual Midwifery (so excited), Landen grabbed a Godiva candy bar off the counter, and I missed it, signing the paper. He had it in his mouth for all of 2 seconds, didn't bite it, and then lady made me pay for it. I was very irrated. I didn't think it was right. Specially for a 3+ dollar candy bar. At least it was dark chocolate. mmmmmmmm

Look at those pictures below, aren't they the cutest?

Laughter the best medicine

Last night while blow drying my hair, Landen had a blast. I have to dry my hair for bed b/c its so stinkin' cold out lately. But these pictures are the result.

We both are REALLY sick, me with bronchitis, and Landen with his usual, unexplained high fever lasting 7+ days.

It's nice to get a break from all that, and see these smiles and delight on him. He is such a cutie pie.

2 week wait.

I guess I am currently in the 2 week wait. I think I will test at 8 dpo, thats in 4 days!!!! We only ended up doing the baby dance days before I ovulated, but that doesn't rule out the chance. I just expected another fake out!

Hoping for a Oct/Nov 08 babe. :D

We joined a playgroup, and are really excited. Everyone seems really nice, and really involved. I think it will be good for us. :D Keep us busy.

temp

just had a rise in temp today... and I thought i didn't ovulate after all. and so as a result, when matt was tired, i said, s'ok, i don't think i'm o-ing. I hope we didn't miss our opportunity. we'll just keep watching. arrrgggg.

landen and i went to the park today. it was beautiful. he played with a little boy who brought him trucks, and shared. they had a great time in the sand. i didnt get to clean his hands off b/c i forgot wipes, so when i grabbed him out of the car, he had been sucking on his fingers, and there was drooly dirt all over his mouth. yucky.

he's napping now. with the amount of sleep i got last night ishould be too, but this is my only "me time". (that i waste away online)

I'm counting down the minutes until bedtime. I'm soooo tired.
I went to the dentist at 4 today and my face is still numb. (I had a filling replaced) Then we went out to dinner b/c I had a bogo coupon.
Landen woke up from his nap again saying, TADA. He is so precious. He did good with his daddy, but when I got home he couldnt give me enough kisses. ahhhhh :D

1.21.08

Landen is crying non stop today. He never crys, and when he does, its only for a few seconds. I don't know what his deal is. I think teething, and being tired. He is napping now, I couldnt wait until his normal 1 o'clock nap. *sigh* He is sleeping though, and that makes me happy.

As for trying to conceive, I don't know what's going on with my body. It keeps trying to ovulate, doing all the signs,and then not... Even positive OPK. One of these days it will happen.

My tooth chipped on Friday, and I am going to the dentist today. Dh has only been with Landen once and he was in a good mood. I'm not worried, but when your baby is sad, you just want to hold him.

until next month...

Yeah, well, I guess I didn't ovulate, as my temp didn't go up. Today I had some light spotting, extremely light and none sense so I have no idea what is happening with my body. So, I will have to focus on other things for a while.

Landen is doing his animal noises all the time now. It is the sweetest thing in the world. Cow, monkey, dog, horse, lion, snake, ect... He does them all. Today I gave him a cracker and he said THANK YOU. It's not a new word, but usually he does it right after he gives me a kiss and ihad said it first. He always says, O WOW, its adorable.

We just got a coupon for a BOGO free at Dairy Queen, I guess we are leaving. Matt wants a blizzard! (haha, and I asked him to help me watch my weight.)

so...

So, my o- pain has subsided, but my nipples are still killing me. It hurts to nurse. That bad. I'm nervous and exicted for the next coming weeks. We have been bunny rabbits for the last two, and my chart says I should try again tonight, but I am so tired. I seem to have a tendency towards being a dead fish.
I just have to go on and on about this b/c we haven't shared with that many people, and its just on my mind. I think the fact that I am charting has made it worst...like I said last time, its like a watched pot.

Landen has been napping good lately. From like 1:15-3:45 today. NICE. As for nights, he's been waking around 4 am, and not being able to go right back to sleep. Ihave to get up and rock him, which wakes me up and then I have to try and relax again. I guess better me than him, right?

I need to get my act together with my doula studies. I have finished the hardest part, which was my favorite part, the pysiology part. Now its more reading my required books, writing my essay, which is mostly written, just needs to be typed up, b/c for some reason I felt the need to kill my hand and write it old school style.

I think I am ready to take on a client. I was afraid at first, b/c I thought, what do I do. But I know what to do. I just have to put it into action. I was going to "shadow" someone, but then I felt that, it would be awkward for me, and she lives so far. It's now about childcare for Landen during this birth, and the fact that landen doesn't go to sleep with out me. DH could do it. It would take a while, but he could do it.

Last night I had a terrible dream, Landen was sleeping in his crib (which he never does b/c we co sleep, and I had left to go to a neighbors for a while (which I would NEVER do) I came back and and found him lying on the floor next to his crib, arms and legs splayed out as though broken. I was gone so long, he had stopped crying, and was just staring at me, and my heart broke, and I said oh, honey, and then I woke up. My gosh, I had to get out of bed, and wake up, I was afraid I would fall back asleep into that dream. It was horrible, the sight of him. The thought of him thinking I'm not there. ACK.

Thanks for reading this far if you did.

Day 31 but whose counting...

You know that saying a watched pot never boils? That's me.

Actually I am finally boiling, but its certainly has seen like forever. I think its b/c I decided to chart this month. Even though I started mid cycle, its still like counting the days, becoming obsessed.

I am trying to just enjoy it, that is what I said to Matt. We don't need to get stressed out, its supposed to be about love. So we are really enjoying ourselves, and I am enjoying our time together, and snuggling. :D

So, now I am finally in the 2 week wait. I didn't expect to get so hopeful, and into it.

At this point we would have a baby due the last few days of September. I know I shouldn't think that far, but I do...

Well, I am thinking I just need a place. I can't do it on myspace, b/c there are people who are friends who I wouldn't want knowing this stuff, or, wouldn't want to know it.

I started another blog on here, but don't remember my login so this will have to do. I only had one post. I will try to keep up this time.

Well, now its Landen's nap time, and DH and my alone time...... ;)

see ya!