Found a friend...

I have a girlfriend from high school that I have been looking for FOREVER. I finally found her on facebook, and I am so happy. It was nice to see her pics, and remember her smile. She was one of the few friends that was really always there, as long as I was.
So, now I've been exploring facebook, finding different people that aren't on myspace, and I am missing some of them. I mean, our roads have gone seperate ways, for sure. Most of them are thinking I am crazy to be married with 1 kid and pregnant with 2.
Anyway, speaking of number 2, I can't believe I am already 8 weeks. Hoping this baby continues to stick. Matt is really liking the name Elizabeth. Of course, that is assuming its a girl. :D
Ok, I am going to try to get Landen out, I got him dressed and the tv was on disney and he say Handy Manny and was like totally wanting to watch it. That is what hes been doing for the past 5 minutes. it just ended though, and I don't want him to want to watch something else.
I cut his hair last night, a little crooked, usually it comes out perfect, but he didnt want to sit still, I do it in the shower, in like a minute. I had matt grab him a popsicle, in hopes that would help him sit still. It looks cute, but on one side I went up a little and on the other its even with the back. He is sooo cute. I'll post some new pics.

Roseola AGAIN

Go here:
http://tash-ramblings.blogspot.com/2008/07/seriously-roseola-again.html for better info. :D

Landen has roseola again. Could explain the past weeks sleeping issues? Maybe? He has the rash now, so hopefully he will be feeling better. I don't know what I should do about this, he's had it now 6 or 7 times. When most people only get 1 time? Maybe I should get a second opinion? I thought about bring him to a homeopathic pediatrician. My midwife knows some.



He got up at 4:45 today, and back to sleep at 7. Then slept until 10:30. At least he slept straight, and didn't wake up.

My tummy does awful when I don't get enough sleep. I get super sick feeling. It's so hard to figure out what to eat, I am not doing so good with that. Anyone want to be my personal chef? :D Pretty please? As much as I love to cook, I just don't have it in me lately.

I can't believe I will be 8 weeks already tomarrow. I feel like I just found out, but apparently not. I have a midwife appt on Tuesday, but I think I might change it to Friday (assuming I have my insurance in) so that Matt can come. She said she works late on Fridays.
Landen wants me gotta go!

awww, much better

We slept last night. He slept from 9-5am woke up to nurse, and then slept until 9. That's how I like it. Then he napped from 12:45 to 3:45. He'll be nice and refreshed for the meeting. Actually we are both sick, my throat is swollen and sore, and my nose stuffed. I imagine I got it from him b/c he has had a cough ( I think from post nasal drip) and a runny nose since Monday. I hate it when he is sick.
I have been feeling icky. Lots of constant tummy aches, and yesterday I threw up. Today wasn't so bad. I feel best in the mornings, and by the time Matt comes home from work, I'm tired, got a tummy ache, and just want to curl up in bed. Yeah, doesn't make for such a good cook.
As for food, no cravings, but the desire to eat healthy. I guess you could call it a craving... I am not dying for it, but when I think about food, I think about simples meals like grilled chicken and veggies.
So, since no one around here reads this, I'm gonna do a little no name vent. Me and a gf had a silly disagreement I guess. I had talked to her about something that upset me (involving other friends of ours) and well, I was a little emotional. After I did my little speech, I apologized, and thanked her for letting me confide in her. Several days later, I am regreting my confession as I should have talked to the people who upset me, but figuring she was my closest friend, it was all good. I am a firm believer in, if you have a problem with someone, talk to them about it, not other people. So, my girlfriend decides to solve the problem for us, and goes to them and talks to them about it. She apparently solved the problem, but I have no idea about this. I go to them to work it out, and they are all like, thinking differently. My friend didn't really understand what I was upset about and changed things up, and "solved a problem", yet I feel so sense of closure. I still feel like this is there. They can apologize to her all they want, but the problem is with me. So I am upset with her that she broke my confidence. She says, you didn't ask me not to tell, so I thought I could. Right. The tears and the "thanks for letting me confide" must have told her that. So now, one problem becomes two. She refuses to apologize, and thinks she did nothing wrong.
I don't know what to do. Its not a huge deal, but I really feel I deserve an apology. (she also spoke to one other person about something else) The bible says to leave your gift at the altar, and go make amends, and to not let the sun set in a provoked state, but how can I do that, when I feel so hurt, and a little betrayed. It's hard to fix something.
Vent over.
Please feel free to give me your thoughts on the matter.
Landen is opening and closing the closet door, saying in, (when he goes in) and out (when he goes out).
I better get my face on for the meeting tonight. I've got little red dots all over my face. They look like teeny freckles. I imagine its hormones, they dont look like pimples though.
BYE!

Sleep

or lack there of. Landen always slept really well as a baby, but the past couple months have been rough. I do plan to transition him from the breast and to his own bed after Matt's parents come, but until then, we have some really long nights. On top of that, my nipples are super sore from the hormones of pregnancy. I am currently counting down the minutes until naptime.
Ahhh, sleep.
Matt took his electrical exam today. I am praying he passes, b/c it will mean a big raise, and we need that. I have been looking for a child to take care of thru craigslists posts, but every child we find doesn't end up working out.
I am six weeks and 2 days pregnant. This morning I woke up so nauseaus, I had to go eat something right away, it wasn't fun. I think it would be a lie to say I am feeling great. But mentally I am, and I love being pregnant so much that I don't want to complain.
We are having pizza tonight. I was going to make pizza, but man am I burnt. So Matt and Landen just went to pick it up. I am savoring this moment of silence, and rest.

4:30 am and...

I'm tired and want to go to sleep. I was just blessed with a insomniac toddler. hahaha He's having a rough night for some reason. He was waking up almost every half hour since we went to bed at 9. By the time midnight rolled around, it felt like it should be morning. You know those nights, that never seem to end. He was tossing and turning and crying in his sleep. We went to a friends house for dinner. He had some leftover pasta faglioli I made before, didn't eat there (they made burgers, ick) and just had a "bagelfull" (a little bagel stick filled with cream cheese) before bed. Maybe the dairy? The excitement of the night? Who knows?
No morning sickness for me. Sometimes I think about food and feel the urge to be sick if its not appetizing, but that's about it. Very tired. My nipples are now sore, which makes a night nurse a thon a little much. He is watching the Little Mermaid on Disney. At night, I can't do much more then turn on the tv and hope he will watch. Not much tv other times, so whatever. My brain isn't really functioning right now. He's b een up an hour so I should have another, and then back to bed.
I am trying to get a sister in my congregation to help me put together a little congregation picnic. I think it would be fun. My hall up north always did that in the summer once a month. Its a lot of work alone.
Don't mean to whine, I have little control of what comes out at this hour.

Gonna go spy on sherilynn.

we are feeling...

great. I am soooo happy. I have been feeling great, just a little tired.
We've been keeping busy, today we went out in service, and enjoyed the association. I didn't get any good calls, but the sister I worked with did. And it was a beautiful day. We came home, ate lunch, nap, and then we went to a stinky consignment shop in Tampa and looked for maternity clothes. I found some cute stuff. All the stuff I bought last time was used from ebay, and not as nice as I thought. This stuff wasn't great, but at least I picked it out. Then Matt, Landen, Jen, and Baby Ayla and I went to Buffalo Wild Wing Cafe. I got there yummy burger. OOOOO, it was sooo cute. Then we went home, and chilled and talked. Matt made some Almond Butter cookies ( I was gonna and he kicked me out) YUM.

Excited about the coming months and the new baby. Matt wants to find out the sex, so I think we will. We are planning a homebirth and have already met the midwife. She is a sister, so that is cool. :D

Time to go to bed. Thanks for checking in.