So much better...

How I feel about things right now.
I haven't posted in a bit so I guess I should backtrack a little.
Nightweaning, yeah, no. We tried it, the first night it went rather well b/c he hadn't taken a nap, and he was to tired to resist, the second night he lost his voice crying, and woking up every 20ish minutes thru the night crying for "ayah" (breast), even crying for it in his sleep! That broke my heart, and the next day he would not leave my side, or my breast. It was hard on him, and it made me feel that he just wasn't ready for it. I have spent lots of love and time teaching him that mommy will be there if he needs me, and then I don't come. He wouldn't let Matt rock him to sleep, even in the night anymore, before he would at night, and so I decided, with Matt's support, that this wasn't for us. I went on a forum and found some moms who tandem nurse, and they all shared positive experiences. From the start I think the main reason I wanted to wean him was b/c I felt like I was supposed to, and that it would be to hard, sooooo many people said it would be hard, but the moms told me jealously was less, if not non existant with the tandem nursing. I know it will be hard on me the first few weeks, and I will have to teach Landen to wait, but hey, that's my choice.
Thanks for the support, and if you don't agree with my choice, thanks for keeping it to yourself (hint hint). I was ready to stop nursing, b/c of Landen's twiddling, but not if he's not ready.

I am 30 weeks now. Here's a picture:

From 922-25

From 922-25

Landen was a kicker, Logan is a stretcher, and sometimes I wonder if he will rip his way out of my stomach trying to completely stretch his whole body. I feel great minus the super achy hips. I got a maternity support, and that really helps, but I keep it in the car and wear it when I am out and about, its not comfortable to sit in. Last night Matt was laughing and watching amazed at my belly which was going several ways at once, and seeing a hand/elbow/knee/whatever stick out from both sides at once. This one wakes me in the night. I'm loving it by the way.
As for my births(for my doula training), well, the woman who taught my class and promised to call me for a birth each weekend, so I could get them in quick before Logan arrives, never called, and now I am getting to close to it being very uncomfortable to be a support for long hours. I am thinking I might end up waiting until Logan is done nursing which I really wanted to avoid, or at least not dependent on the breast, to get the births in. Frustrating.
Landen is doing great otherwise, learning lots of letters, colors, I've been working on a big project for him, and we have been doing fun crafts, and learning things every day. He really likes that.
The weather has finally cooled down some it seems all of a sudden. It's been not humid, and about 86 the past weeek. This morning we took a long walk around the neighborhood, and enjoyed the cool morning (maybe 75-78?) I am looking forward to opening the windows (altho the man who lives below us hurt his back and will be home for the next 6 weeks, and he smokes ALL DAY).
That's all for now...will post pics, thanks for reading!